It's been a long day at school;
But I loved every minute of the grind.
The challenges, the discussions;
My friends, my kind.

A fulfilling day, a satisfying week;
Makes me wonder why I'm feeling so meek.

I have to go home now;
And I'm filled with dread.
Will you be angry, will you be mad?
Maybe I'm lucky, and you're in bed.

It's a daily scene, the raging anger,
But the hurt and pain - they always linger.
And long after the lights are out;
I cry to sleep; my habitual bout.

My childhood memories of dolls are dear;
But tinged with hatred and smeared with fear.
Lived in your shadow; jumped to your bidding;
My mother weeps; who am I kidding?

Look at me Pa, look at me clearly;
I know you love me ever so dearly.
Why don't you hug me and tell me I'm good;
Your anger, your coldness - an unfair hood.

You drilled into me that I was a loser;
Till I had no worth, no esteem and ego.
I fled the scene; I became a boozer;
You ruined me Pa; you killed my credo.

I survived it all Pa; I had good friends;
I'm stronger and wiser now; much more proactive.
The freedom and distance gave me understanding;
You were neglected years ago, and just being reactive.

Family's a sacred fabric, Pa;
Woven with love and nurtured with care.
You took us for granted and walked all over us;
Can you undo it all; be strong, be fair?

I love you Daddy, and yearn your warmth;
I yearn in vain; I know you'll taunt.
I stand steadfast; my love is unconditional;
I'm here for you - it's Providential.



A fulfilling day; a satisfying week;
Makes me wonder why I'm feeling so meek.